Whew it’s October already and we are almost through it!
October is awareness month for so many things! Metal health is just one of them and something I am so strongly passionate about. Metal health is scary and can go so many different ways.
I have been crazy busy in my life and haven’t really taken the time to sit down and write. I really need to get in the habit of doing a post every night. Sometimes life just get away from you. I have so much on my plate right now between work, children, dogs, traveling, volunteering, doctors without boarders, advocacy and still checking in on family friends.
I have come so far in October alone. I am so proud of myself and I make sure to tell myself that. I have grown even more. I have put my past in the past and locked it away.
I have anxiety. I have depression and I am not ashamed to admit that or to know when it is time to ask for help.
I lost a baby at five weeks old and then lost at baby at twelve weeks old. I was emotionally unstable. I hated life, I was so angry with everyone and everything. I have let almost everything go and I am taking back my life. I am making myself happy and enjoying each day as it comes.
Do I have rough days? Of course I am human. It is okay to break down as long as you don’t stay there and you get up and get back to handling your life.
If you would have asked me a couple months ago if I would be this way I would have said no. I felt like my world had ended but really I just had to get through the storm and the pain I was feeling on my own time. I needed to let it all out. Admit and voice and speak out about what was going on with me and what I was feelings on the inside. I needed to tell the truth and let it all out. I couldn’t hide anymore. I couldn’t keep things in because that is what was really killing me.
You are not your labels. You are human and you will get through this. I hope everyone is great! ❤️