Today it hit me. I cried and cried. This year has weighed on me so heavy. I needed to just let everything out I have been holding onto so I can breath just a little bit better.
The littlest things and gatherings have become so overwhelming for me. I don’t like it but I am at a loss of how to get back to the way I was. I feel so alone that I just don’t have someone to talk that understands what I am feeling. Everyone I talk to has so much hate and tells me what I should do instead of putting themselves in my shoes.
I have some friends that will listen and tell me what I think I want to hear. Really I just need someone who has been through what I have been through and tell me there is light at the end of the tunnel because they know there actually is.
Today I decorated for the New Years Party and I enjoyed it. All the creativity and new ideas. Being off of work has been amazing with the time to spend with my son and dog. I have been able to handle my stress in a way that helps without stressing that I need to work or see patients.
I’m hoping soon I find a opening in this storm.
Hope everyone has a great Sunday❤️